I’m not gonna be okay for a while. This is so hard.
I couldn’t sleep last night. As I was in bed watching TV this commercial came on. A little boy was running up to an old man saying “Grandpa! Grandpa!” It hit me that I will never get to see Justin do that ever again. And I’ll never get to do that again. I lost it. And started bawling like a baby.
Me and Grandma went to the movies tonight. I’ve not cried because of a movie since I was little, but this one got me. This guy was talking about how he lost his wife and blah blah blah. It just reminded me of Grandpa.
Nothing feels the same. It’s like a part of everyone is gone. The house doesn’t feel the same. It doesn’t sound the same. Because it’s not the same. I’ll be okay. Then I’ll get sudden waves of sadness. I don’t deal well with things like this.
